Comments on: Mark 8:34-38 http://dream.uk.net/wpblog/2007/12/12/mark-834-38/ reading the bible as a community Thu, 20 Nov 2008 15:25:42 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.0.5 by: Wend http://dream.uk.net/wpblog/2007/12/12/mark-834-38/#comment-2169 Sat, 22 Dec 2007 02:11:40 +0000 http://dream.uk.net/wpblog/2007/12/12/mark-834-38/#comment-2169 I try to let God lead, but deep down I'm perhaps now resenting the call to embrace suffering; I've been trying to do it, and learn from the tough times, but I feel I've had enough of that and want my life to feel happier. I have lost the real me, I've spent too much time craving reassurance, trying to become what would make me liked by others; where did that confident teenager go? Will she ever come back? I can be holier-than-thou and know that God's ways are best, and that suffering brings me closer to Him and develops my character etc etc but I'm growing weary of walking blindly "onwards" without knowing "where to". My personal, professional and church life has seen endings in the last 3and a half years, with a few new things starting but not lasting. Lots of Autumn and Winter moments, with no sign yet of Spring although it has to come. Where does Faith end and Resignation to the Inevitable begin? I try to let God lead, but deep down I’m perhaps now resenting the call to embrace suffering; I’ve been trying to do it, and learn from the tough times, but I feel I’ve had enough of that and want my life to feel happier. I have lost the real me, I’ve spent too much time craving reassurance, trying to become what would make me liked by others; where did that confident teenager go? Will she ever come back?

I can be holier-than-thou and know that God’s ways are best, and that suffering brings me closer to Him and develops my character etc etc but I’m growing weary of walking blindly “onwards” without knowing “where to”. My personal, professional and church life has seen endings in the last 3and a half years, with a few new things starting but not lasting. Lots of Autumn and Winter moments, with no sign yet of Spring although it has to come.

Where does Faith end and Resignation to the Inevitable begin?

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